“RABBI’S MUSINGS (&
AMUSINGS)”
Hoshanah Rabbah/Erev
Shemini Atzeres
21 Tishrei 5778/ October 11,
2017
A friend related that this year,
aside from his other "kabbalos" (spiritual New Year's resolutions),
he has also accepted upon himself not to get angry or frustrated if/when he
"messes up".
It's actually a brilliant and
integral tactical move.
We are all aware of how our
conscience/evil inclination works against us. We resolve to become better and
improve in a certain area, and pledge to accomplish certain feats that have
hitherto eluded us. We set out full of gusto and momentum... until!
When we encounter that initial
"until" it's usually sufficient to completely unravel us and burst
our bubble. The little vexing voice tells us we already blew it, and so we
might as well just throw in the towel now, and spare ourselves further
aggravation. However, now that my friend had an added resolution to not allow
himself to become bent out of shape when unable to fulfill his pledge, he is
still keeping a resolution by not allowing it to get to him. It's a
counter-tactic to keep himself going. By not allowing himself to give up, he
can feel that there is no reason to give up, and to stay the course even after
a slip.
My rebbe, Rabbi Berel Wein, relates
that he had a sign that read "confidence is the feeling you have, until
you realize the problem".
In order to ensure that one will be
able to maintain his confidence, he needs to be as proactive as possible.
This year, this piece of advice is
invaluable. Undoubtedly, as we dance and elatedly celebrate the conclusion of
another cycle of Torah, and set to begin anew, many will pledge to be more
vigilant about reviewing the parsha each week. Perhaps it will be to be ma'avir
sedra (review the parsha) which one had been derelict about until now, or
to be more vigilant about learning shnayim mikra v'echad targum (twice
the Chumash and once a translation), or to learn Rashi, or perhaps to undertake
learning an added commentary such as Ramban or Seforno. Regardless of what the
resolution is, this year is a 'resolution killer'. After the excited dancing of
Simchas Torah ends and one enjoys a restful Friday evening, as he heads home
from shul the following morning, he is already a parsha behind. And what a
parsha it is!
Parshas Bereishis spans Creation and
the first thousand years up to the flood. It also includes the primordial sin
and banishment from Gan Eden, and Kayin murdering Hevel. If ever there was a
parsha which needed a full week at least, this was it. Instead, in Eretz
Yisroel they have a day in a half, and in the diaspora we have barely half a
day.
So as we accept upon ourselves to
re-dedicate ourselves to learning the parsha each week, we should also accept
to not become discouraged within the first two days of the new cycle.
The first sin was due to the wily
scheme of the snake, we should ensure that we try not to fall prey to his old
tricks.
Freilichen
Yom Tov & Chag Sameiach,
R’ Dani and Chani Staum