“RABBI’S MUSINGS (&
AMUSINGS)”
Erev Rosh Hashanah
29 Elul 5777/ September
20, 2017
One morning this past week, a photographer came to yeshiva to
take pictures of the beginning of the new z’man (semester). As can be imagined,
as soon as he entered the classroom, all the boys looked at him. He motioned
that everyone should keep learning, and act as if he wasn't there.
The truth is that although the learning in our class has been
great b’h, I can't say that every student sits upright with perfect attention
at all times. But with the photographer snapping away, every student was
sitting up in his seat, bent over his Gemara, finger on the place, following
intensely.
The same occurs whenever a photographer comes to take
pictures during davening. Suddenly, everyone seems to be davening with intense
concentration, fully engrossed in every word being said.
I was thinking about it afterwards - Is it all just a ploy?
Is it just a facade put up for the camera? I don't believe it is. The truth is
that we all have a mental image/picture of what we would like to be. We all have
aspirations to achieve certain levels of accomplishment, based on our values
and goals. The problem is that in the day-to-day happenings, lethargy sets in,
and we don't live up to our own ultimate mental image. Perhaps the greatest
rationalization we offer ourselves is, if I allow myself a little leisure and
leeway right now, it won't take away from my ultimate goal. After all, does it
really matter if I'm not at the top of my game on a random Tuesday in November?
The problem is that we seem to use that same rationalization
day after day, month after month, year after year. The result is that the elite
mental picture we have of ourselves becomes increasingly elusive.
A picture captures a moment, and freezes it. When the
photographer is taking pictures, we act as we truly want to be viewed, so that
that image becomes frozen in time. It may not be who we are, but it generally
is who we want to be, or at least how we want to be perceived. We act a certain
way in front of the camera because that's who we truly want to be. The
challenge is for us to become the person we posed as in the picture.
From Rosh Hashanah through Yom Kippur we try to be on top of
our spiritual game. In a sense, the celestial photographer is taking a snapshot
of us, based on which the heavenly courts will decide our future.
At times, we may feel that our superior behavior during these
days is just a silly charade, because we can't fool G-d anyway. However, that
superior behavior can encourage us to realize who we truly pine to be. We
really do want to live a more elevated and meaningful life, and we really do
want to be the person in the heavenly snapshot taken during these days.
Our challenge then is to constantly remember that the only
way to become the person in the picture, is by taking advantage of every day,
and doing our best constantly. Every random Tuesday in November indeed matters
along the journey to become the greatest person we can become.
Kesiva
Vachasima Tova
Good
Yom Tov & Shana Tova,
R’ Dani and Chani Staum